The daughter of the former governor in Oyo State, Rasheed Ladoja, Bolatito Idakula has disclosed that she had two abortions during the early stage of her life and live in shame for a long time.
Tito, a wife of a Nigerian singer, Bez idakula stated that she had an abortion simply because she felt that was the only option available at the time.
She added that when she was married and had decided to give birth, she suffered a miscarriage, adding that she thought it was God punishing her for her actions.
“I’ve had 2 abortions. I was scared and wasn’t ready. I took the only options I thought were available to me at the time.”
“And even in this age of pro-choice, I am not personally proud of the choices I made. And I lived in shame and guilt for years.”
“It almost crippled me when I found myself fighting for the life of my daughter. I couldn’t stop thinking: “I deserve this punishment. Now I’m ready, and God is finally ready to get me back.”
“But then I didn’t understand the salvation and righteousness that I have in Christ. That in his death and resurrection Jesus Christ destroyed my shame and gave me a new name.”
Part of the statement in her Twitter post reads; “A new beginning. A new identity. Even in the midst of my ‘sin’ and deepest shame, God couldn’t have punished me because that is what Christ took on when he chose that sacrifice.”
“In the stripes and death, he took all my sin and in His resurrection, he set me FREE. What GRACE! So undeserved. I mean, my husband and 3 babies are proof of God’s Grace! I thought: “I have to earn it”, this love, this mercy, this grace.”
“I thought: I must WORK for this righteousness. I must show that I deserve it. But nothing I did ever felt enough. Until one day I got it: “righteousness (right standing) is the gift of choosing Christ. It is nothing you can ever work for. With this comes the freedom to be and to do!”
“You begin to know, that your works are just you walking in agreement with what God has already done.
I am here doing all that I do because nothing holds me back. No guilt, no condemnation, no shame! Christ took it all.”